Hi, yes that's my real name. Finally we have a singles contact site that I can afford.

Formerly an over-the-road truck driver (flatbed), having driven over a million miles, it could be said that I've driven to the moon and back, then back again and the old colloquialism "shoot for the moon" is no longer a valid objective.

Self-taught in everything I know (except driving truck and a fundamental understanding of computer programming and data processing), I have designed and built mobile homes, created a crankshaft recycling facility, remodeled houses, rebuilt cars, engines, transmissions, computers, websites.

I used to think of myself as a "People-person", as many do in their youth, but age has come to prove me wrong. I enjoy friendships and being together but I also enjoy my solitude. I have often been a loner in the past, usually still am, but I would like to find someone to accompany me thru the rest of this life.

Native American folklore tells of the spirit of the eagle who, early in his life is forward, loud and boisterous, ever boasting, seeking validation of his knowledge and abilities. Then later in life realizes he doesn't need it and finally begins to take flight away from the world to which he is consigned to spend his life in ... a task which he will perform in virtual solitude. Now alone, he soars high in the sky watching from a vast distance with keen, highly sensitive visual acuity and intricate understanding the minute intricacies that preoccupy the world below.

I live on fixed income so there isn't a lot of money to spend on traveling, but if the right gal pops up, maybe I can work something out. I usually do.

I became disabled in March of 1999 and have been living on Social Security since January 2000. Life is hell, but still, I live and breathe. I help whoever I can and am sad when I can't. I wish I could make some sense out of the fact that bad things happen to good people, while the seemingly bad people reap rewards from our suffering. I guess not all things can be explained in terms simple enough for me to grasp.

I'm a humble, brash, painfully honest, down-to-earth, low-keyed kinda guy. If you like blunt, gut-honest responses, I'm your man. Many have called me rude. If you can't handle that type of guy, please don't waste my time. If you are not fluent with the english language, please do not waste my time. If you live outside of the United States, please do not waste my time.

On the other hand, if you can get past all that, I am then, not a nice guy, but I am a good guy. Like I said, I do what I can to help others and reluctantly admit defeat when I can't. I treat women as much like equals as their mentality, alignment and outlook will allow me to. My greatest bar to close relationships is the fact that I don't sugar coat anything. Life is not a bowl of cherries; it is a long series of challenges and growth experiences that we usually just end up trying to cope with and seldom emerge from with any real clarity of victory.

I love and appreciate honesty and truth in all its forms. Platitudes and clichés churn my guts when they're used in an effort to minimize an emotional crisis.

I don't particularly enjoy overly dependant or excessively independent women. I'm pretty well balanced in that respect within my self and I am drawn to women who can demonstrate that they share that attribute with me. So, if any of you actually know what interdependence is and you don't need me to explain to you why I choose to sit alone in a 40s+ room instead of mingling with a more random crowd, let's talk.

I spend a lot of time online. As I stated above, I'm currently, learning to master my own website. I have a connection with a line of products and have been working to develop the catalog for online. I’ve been doing this for the last 6 years or so. Hopefully someday it will turn into a viable source of income.

I used to write poetry to express my feelings, still do on occasion. Although I haven't written in a long while, I offer what I have that others may know something of me as I pass through this life ... in virtual solitude, for it seems that no one can truly relate to the depths through which I travel.

My poetry can both depress and enlighten, according to how the reader is aligned within him/herself. If you simply find a bit of wisdom in understanding a problem you have or even a moment of comic relief, then I have succeeded. I do not wish to hinder anyone's progress in this life, only to assist. We all must make our own choices, but the more information and understanding we have and exercise in making decisions, the more satisfying the outcome can be.

"The value we place on life is derived from the meaning we find in our experiences as we live them."

I don't have a lot to offer because I live on disability benefits, but I'm looking for a mate. It's a neuro-chemical dysfunction that keeps me pretty well depressed most of the time. Drugs don't help, I've given up on therapy and treatments after a long (over a decade) clinical history of them. I'm not violent or suicidal, I don't cry, I'm just not very enthused about life and living. If you can get past that, then, (again) I'm actually not a nice guy, but a good guy. I enjoy computers and internet and tinkering with most anything. I like to say things like ... 'If I can get my fingers on it I can fix it' and 'Everything I touch improves'. I have been told that I have healing in my hands. My greatest bar to success has been a lack of understanding. If I can figure it out though, I can usually fix it.

I'm a low-keyed type of person looking only for a companion who has pretty much had what she's wanted out of life and just wants to settle down, relax and finish living out her life with me ... in peace. I'm not given to strong opinions. I'm just waiting for my final days. If I can do something worthwhile without over extending my energies, I will do my best with it for as long as I can.

I am a Mormon. I received my endowments in the Memphis, TN temple in August 2003. No, I didn't serve any mission, unless you want to count the mission I serve just by being here in this world and no, I don't have a current temple recommend and I don't want one. However, I have been a member all my life and have learned the gospel as befits any lifetime member of any church. My love for the lord and savior Jesus Christ is not expressible with mere words and he and (by way of him and the Holy Ghost) his/our father (in heaven) express themselves through me from time to time as they see fit and they are always in my heart. I know the church is perfect as a whole, but many of the members I'd just as soon stay away from. You won't see me doting on the church as many do; I find it something of a turn off. Baring of testimony and discussing gospel (I feel) is something for which there is specific time and place and one of my favorite passages in the scriptures reads: "... sufficient to edify the moment. ...".

I'd like to meet a good woman around my age who is into computers too. I think it would make everything a bit more interesting for both of us and some things perhaps somewhat easier.

I need a woman who likes to maintain herself and stays in good shape. It would be nice if she didn't have to put a lot of energy/activity into it since I don't have a lot of energy to put into physical activities to do things with her. I can manage some activity, but I need to be able to rest when I get tired and my stamina is somewhat lacking, sometimes severely, a result of my disability.

I'm not a lust freak, but I do have a real emotional need for a female companion who I won't tire of looking at. My visual and tactile experiences have always been my most uplifting ... or degrading, depending on their given nature. Maybe you think that's shallow. Maybe you're right. I'm not saying that personality is not important, to the contrary, I find it very important, but physicality and personality weigh in pretty much evenly with me.

I love a nice big set of blue eyes. When I look into them, the world just goes away ... and thick, lively, light colored hair is the perfect frame for them in my eyes. I also love lean, light features on a woman, but not to the point of fragility.

It would be nice if she's been a Mormon for a long time too, but not if she is fanatic or overly active in the church. There are things we learn over time that require long years of experience in applying the gospel in our lives that I find great value in. A proper, perspective on our reason for being here and a deep personal understanding and appreciation for the atonement and sacrament are only a couple of them.

As I said, I often tire easily. Bubbly, energetic, overly emotional people just tend to wear me out.

As I also said earlier, I'm looking for a woman who has pretty much had what she wants out of life and is ready to relax and just live life out with me. I have seen most of the continental United States already, but if you haven't, I guess I could do it again. If you have money and want to travel, I could probably handle doing that with you, but only if we can do it at leisure.

I have included here text from my public web space. Many have read it and it has become apparent that there are those who seem to think that what I have written here is in jest. Let me assure you I am not joking. Everything I have stated here is true and straight from the heart of its writer. If you have found humor in it, more power to you, it's not the first time I've been laughed at for being honest. In truth, also, I have often suffered for my honesty at the hands of others. Be that as it may, I have grown beyond taking offense for that, but nonetheless, if you think I'm being unrealistic here, don't be lecturing me about faith believing and/or not giving up and/or not settling for less than what I want. I will no longer entertain such rabble.

If you find yourself mature enough to appreciate the honesty I've expressed here and fit the description I've offered above and you're actually interested in contacting me, you may do so by messaging me through LDSPals.

When I'm logged in I usually create Single Adults - 40s+ chat room since I don't care much for chatting with the younger, more random crowd. While I'm usually sitting alone in there, I browse the "Who's Online" pages and invite those I'm interested in. So, if you see that I'm logged in, watch for the invitation at the top of whatever page you're viewing maybe refresh it occasionally if you're viewing it for a long time.